Hello, my darlings! 😊
First of all, I’m sorry for not posting since about a week. I wanted to, but as a mentioned in my last post, I had exams last week, and I was a bit sick too because of the stress and just my regular anxiety that I sometimes have.
This is why I thought that I’m going to talk to you about this topic.
So, I want to tell you a couple of things that happened to me in the last about 8 years (don’t worry, it won’t be so long… just a little 😇).
First stuff, I’ll tell you about primary school, where the whole anxiety started.
In here, primary school takes 8 years. The first four years are the lower grades and then the second four years are the upper grades. After the first for years we get new teachers, and in my case, the class was separated for different groups, such as Advanced English and Regular English, and the same thing was with Literature too.
1. The Literature Chaos
Now, I have to tell you, I love Literature, I like to write poems and different stories or fanfictions, but those two years with that teacher caused me a ton of anxiety, stress and misery. I usually felt terrible, because somehow (until this day, I have no idea how) I always forgot something for that class, for example I left my book at home or I forgot to do my homework. And it was totally accidental, I didn’t mean to do those.
So, actually thinking back, it wasn’t the teacher, that made me anxious. Actually, which teacher wouldn’t be nervous when there are constantly problems with a student? No, it was the fact that somehow those problems happened, and this is where my anxiety started.
So, for two years I had no confidence, no motivation and no goals for the rest of my life. I just wanted to get out of that place and never go back. It’s ironic, that after we went to high school, I missed it so badly, because we got together with the other Literature group, and their teacher was awesome. Seriously, the most inspiring woman (beside my mom and my sister) in my life. And then in high school (of course in last year, why not?) I got another amazing Literature teacher, who is also really inspiring and funny.
2. The P.E. Problem
So, the other thing that made me really badly anxious in a pretty young age, was P.E.
Yes, physical education.
I have to say, again, I love to do exercises at home and I love to use the stationary bike too. But since I’m really stubborn and also shy, I didn’t like to do those things that the teacher wanted me to do, for example the rope climbing and actually I wasn’t really the best in anything that has a connection with sports. I mean I can play basketball and things like that, but I like to do them with my friends or alone.
I realized a few months ago, that my real problem is that when I have to do an exercise in front of the whole class (aka the negative crowd) I start shaking and getting nervous.
This “P.E. problem” also started in primary school, and came along with me until high school’s last year. I had four P.E. teachers, and I don’t even have to say, I wasn’t a favourite for any of them. And again, after that, for the last year in high school we got a normal P.E. teacher, who was also really inspiring.
So, with those bypasses, I wanted to show you, that with the time everything gets better. You just have to think positively, and the most important thing is that you got to have faith. And also, don’t be afraid to try new things, because I was, and I thought they were huge and heavy, but some of them are actually pretty nice and easy. 😉
These are the things I wanted to mention to you today. Sorry, if it was a bit confusing, but I’m still recovering from the exam stress.
Anyways, if you’d like to tell me anything (seriously, anything), you can write a comment or an e-mail. I would really appreciate to talk with you, so if you have anything that you want to say, or if you think I can give you any advice, or you just want to talk, then go ahead. Write to me! 😉😘
Have a wonderful day or night!
And don’t forget. I love you!! ❤️💛💙💜